Saturday, October 18, 2014

"The more you invest in love, the more vulnerable you get."

As much as I’d love to embrace the vulnerability, things aren’t turning out fine.
Our love is almost like a kid playing with a box of sparklers, connecting a second stick to the first in order to keep the sparks going, accept that it’s down to the last few pieces. And I watch till it finally dies off. 

- For appearing too reliant,
- For putting in effort to keep the sparks alive,
- For ending up being too annoying, 

  I’m sorry. 

Friday, October 17, 2014



Hey ho. 

I’ve been busy recuperating for the past week. Some think I’m so lucky to skip work but it has been nothing but hell. I had to survive on painkillers and I’ve been ordered to rest in bed strictly. 

Thank you Cheri for the gongcha and that pint of ice cream. That’s honestly one of the best comfort food to get through the painful week. Aww I’m so glad that at the end of the day, I can always fall back on you:’)

Work starts tomorrow.
What a bittersweet friday. 

Started having this sudden conviction to stop giving in and start standing up for myself. 
I think I’ve been way too nice thus far. 

Thursday, October 2, 2014


Song of the Day: I’m Not The Only One – Sam Smith

You say I’m crazy
'Cause you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby
I know I’m not the only one

Friday, September 26, 2014

You’re one of the nicest and kindest person out there. 
I pray your mom gets better and I get to see you happy soon. 
I’m sorry that I can’t accept anything more than what you’re willing to offer. 

Thursday, September 25, 2014

by Noisy Paradise
Monday, September 15, 2014

It’s time for some tough love.

On occasion, they receive the love they want, and they put up with poor behavior the rest of the time to get a crumb of love at some point in the future.

Escaping this cycle is challenging, as your sense of self-worth and esteem get locked up in the relationship, creating a constant search for moments of love amidst long bouts of indifference. If you’ve communicated your needs and he refuses to act or alter his treatment for you, sometimes the only way out of the cycle is, well, out. Move on to someone who will treat you like a treasure.

Charles J Orlando

Wednesday, August 27, 2014 Thursday, August 21, 2014
Our relationship feels different. Like someone has taken my favorite sweater and thrown it in the dryer and it doesn’t fit right anymore. I want to pull and tug on it until it feels comfortable again. Kasie West, Pivot Point (via splitterherzen)
Monday, August 18, 2014
used to.

used to.

Thursday, August 7, 2014

I can hear your heart
On the radio beat
They’re playing ‘Chasing Cars’
And I thought of us
Back to the time,
You were lying next to me
I looked across and fell in love

It took me awhile to get over the sudden hype of “The fault in our stars” people are creating ever since the movie came out. A part of me died when one of my favorite book (thank you Cindy for introducing) is now known to the entire world, and suddenly everyone is talking about it. 

Oh and, I absolutely cannot forgive those who think they understand so much about “the fault in our stars” based on the movie, and not the book. You NEED to read the book dude, what you know is only less than half of everything. Not forgetting those who think this book is not worthy of their attention and would rather read other “sophisticated” books, are now raving about it. zzz. 

I don’t know if anyone out there can understand my frustration, but I just felt like “the fault in our stars” is so so dear to me, so much so that I just want to lock it somewhere safe where nobody knows. 

Friday, August 1, 2014
You are going to break your promise. I understand. And I hold my hands over the ears of my heart, so that I will not hate you. Catherynne M. Valente (via splitterherzen)
Wednesday, July 30, 2014


Every disappointment has taken me towards a higher level of clarity that you might just be a passerby in life. 

Monday, July 28, 2014

Insert doubt here

A part of me wonder if I would be happier than I am now if things didn’t happen.