I’m a hopeless romantic, obsessed with romance novels and movies, hoping to find the perfect guy who’ll sweep me off my feet. But this movie just completely burst that fairytale bubble I’ve always hoped for (nonetheless I adore it)…
I dont want my life to be like that of Cindy. You fall head over heels with this one guy, and you made the marriage vow, bore him a daughter but in the end, you’re so overwhelmed and unhappy with your life that eventually you fell out of love and have nothing left for this entire relationship.
In addition to that I realised, it’s alot easier to end things when you have everything, but it’s harder to walk away when you’ve nothing. Your partner becomes your world, when they leave and you’re nothing. Do you stay because you love that person or do you stay because you’re stuck and left with no other choice? I don’t ever want to put myself in that situation. That being said, my mom would always tell me never to be a housewife… Too dependent is not good.
It’s really sad that even playing the “child’s future” card and marriage vows couldn’t make her stay.
It’s been a day and I’m still trying to make sense of what I had witnessed.
"Your boyfriend cheated on you with me! HAHAHAHA."
How could anyone stand upright and say something so horrible? I watched as the other girl broke down while her boyfriend was desperately trying to make amends.
"I don’t think I can love you anymore." and that girl was right, you see a man differently the moment he cheats. His value drops: You begin to doubt his actions, his words, and his honesty. And this cannot be undone.
Fulfilling obligations, sticking to appointments, keeping up with fellowship, and tons of assignments at school. I barely have adequate rest, let alone some “me” time.
This week hasn’t been going well. Falling sick, canceling appointment, crying during skills (I wasn’t scolded in case you’re wondering), going for a job interview unprepared, and waking up late for team training.
I received a stalk of Gerbera with a message from K which says “To cry is to feel, cherish this gift.” I needed it. I don’t know when “compassion fatigue” will kick in while I’m working in an oncology ward, but when it does, I would be so shattered.
Vday with Johnny at Lee’s Taiwanese in Starvista. Ice green milk tea, century egg tofu, beef noodle soup, salt&pepper chicken and intestine meesua (never a fan of intestine but that’s the only meesua). It’s soooooo good.
"Here’s the thing about Hazel: Almost everyone is obsessed with leaving a mark upon the world. Bequeathing a legacy. Outlasting death. We all want to be remembered. I do, too. That’s what bothers me most, is being another unremembered casualty in the ancient and inglorious war against disease. I want to leave a mark.
But Van Houten: The marks human leave are too often scars.
After my PET scan lit up, I snuck into the ICU and saw her while she was unconscious. I just walked in behind a nurse with a badge and I got to sit next to her for like ten minutes before I got caught. I really thought she was going to die before I could tell her that I was going to die, too. I just held her hand and tried to imagine the world without us and for about 1 sec I was good enough person to hope she died so she would never know that I was going, too. But then I wanted more time so we could fall in love. I got my wish, I suppose. I left my scar.
What else, she is so beautiful. You dont get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she is smarter than you: You know she is. She is funny without ever being mean. I love her. I am so lucky to love her, Van Houten. You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes hers.”
Gees. To those who laughed at me for reading a young adult novel but are now picking this book up and bawling their eyes out, good for you. hehe. Can’t wait for this movie to be out in SG!