"The more you invest in love, the more vulnerable you get."
As much as I’d love to embrace the vulnerability, things aren’t turning out fine.
Our love is almost like a kid playing with a box of sparklers, connecting a second stick to the first in order to keep the sparks going, accept that it’s down to the last few pieces. And I watch till it finally dies off.
- For appearing too reliant,
- For putting in effort to keep the sparks alive,
- For ending up being too annoying,
I’ve been busy recuperating for the past week. Some think I’m so lucky to skip work but it has been nothing but hell. I had to survive on painkillers and I’ve been ordered to rest in bed strictly.
Thank you Cheri for the gongcha and that pint of ice cream. That’s honestly one of the best comfort food to get through the painful week. Aww I’m so glad that at the end of the day, I can always fall back on you:’)
Work starts tomorrow.
What a bittersweet friday.
Started having this sudden conviction to stop giving in and start standing up for myself.
I think I’ve been way too nice thus far.
You’re one of the nicest and kindest person out there.
I pray your mom gets better and I get to see you happy soon.
I’m sorry that I can’t accept anything more than what you’re willing to offer.
It’s time for some tough love.
On occasion, they receive the love they want, and they put up with poor behavior the rest of the time to get a crumb of love at some point in the future.
Escaping this cycle is challenging, as your sense of self-worth and esteem get locked up in the relationship, creating a constant search for moments of love amidst long bouts of indifference. If you’ve communicated your needs and he refuses to act or alter his treatment for you, sometimes the only way out of the cycle is, well, out. Move on to someone who will treat you like a treasure.
Charles J Orlando
I can hear your heart
On the radio beat
They’re playing ‘Chasing Cars’
And I thought of us
Back to the time,
You were lying next to me
I looked across and fell in love
It took me awhile to get over the sudden hype of “The fault in our stars” people are creating ever since the movie came out. A part of me died when one of my favorite book (thank you Cindy for introducing) is now known to the entire world, and suddenly everyone is talking about it.
Oh and, I absolutely cannot forgive those who think they understand so much about “the fault in our stars” based on the movie, and not the book. You NEED to read the book dude, what you know is only less than half of everything. Not forgetting those who think this book is not worthy of their attention and would rather read other “sophisticated” books, are now raving about it. zzz.
I don’t know if anyone out there can understand my frustration, but I just felt like “the fault in our stars” is so so dear to me, so much so that I just want to lock it somewhere safe where nobody knows.
Every disappointment has taken me towards a higher level of clarity that you might just be a passerby in life.
Insert doubt here
A part of me wonder if I would be happier than I am now if things didn’t happen.