Its so hard to find a common time when we’re 7 hours apart.
I miss you!<3
I have too much to say that I have nothing to say.
It came to a point where certain days each week it’ll be filled with thoughts of the future. It makes my heart ache and I’m exhausted from this sadness because of the realization that there can only be two outcomes in every relationship: Either you break up or you get married.
Some say I’m reading too much into things, that I should only live for the moment. But in my defence as far as the growing up process goes, every once in a while you think/plan for your future, you ask yourself: How is my career going to be like, how am I going to take care of my parents, who are the friends whom I know will be there 5 years on, who am I going to marry, when am I going to settle down?
So if you’re living for the moment, how can you look at your other half and be happy when there isn’t a future for the both of you together?
How is it possible to love someone so much but yet you know you won’t marry him?
Never allowed myself to be truly happy for the fear that this whole thing could fizzle out and I’ll be back to square one again. There is a saying that you become a little less real every second in other people’s eyes whom you are not around anymore. I collect silly stuff and put them in a memory box so I know it is real. Every hugs and kisses tasted so bittersweet. Sometimes it’s so hard to stomach my food with you around. Everytime I look at you I wonder if there’s a future of us.
Are my worries valid? Maybe I’m getting a little too serious. Maybe I should take it lightly. Maybe I’m overthinking. Right. Stop.
You can only give away what you already have inside yourself
"True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force youself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you’ve missed the first step of filling in your own self with these emotions."
I really shouldn’t have form such bad impression of Hong Kong because it didn’t turn out as bad as how people described it to be:)
Anyhooo now I’m back in Singapore!
Here’s to a greater 2014
2013’s last service.
Last service was rather thought provoking. I’m still in the midst of digesting what the pastor has preached.
Chronos Time: Sequential Time
Kairos Time: Moment in time or timing
There is a time and season for everything. Life is about what we do in time and with time. When we have understanding of the times, we will know what to do.
As the time approached for him to be taken up to heaven, Jesus resolutely set out for Jerusalem.
Jesus knew his time.
We were called to rise up in 2014. To seize every opportunity or to grow in every failure. It’s time for us to do what is right instead of what is easy.
2013 has yet to come to an end, but I’m in the mood to sum it up:D
This year feels completely different as compared to 2011&2012.
I’m alot more happier, devoting time in those who matter, keeping myself busy with tons of assignments and releasing stress through cca (it works!).
It’s time for me to set out and work hard to achieve what I’ve aimed for. I know the odds aren’t in my favour, but hey, at least I know there isn’t “what ifs” lingering at the back of my mind.
I will not take the easy way out.
Although that isn’t the best 2nd dinner I had on Christmas at a friend’s place, I’m still thankful I guess.
Can’t wait for the real celebratory Christmas dinner today at my grams place with my loved ones<3
(Attachments officially ends today. yayy)
First milestone yesterday I’m happy:)
Favorite Scenes from The Notebook.
Cry fest time.
How dare she said no to you. Nobody says no to Ryan. No one! Roarrr.
Stop all the things at hand, take a moment and put yourself into someone else’s shoes.
When babies wet their diapers, they cry.
When old people wet their diapers, they try to call you out in so many different ways.
I can’t stand the sight of the elderly looking really sad and uncomfortable whenever the nurses reply “wait, 9pm (1 hour later) then change for you”
No it’s not right. It’s just not right. It’s super uncomfortable to sleep on your pee. Whoever wets their bed will know how uncomfortable it is and all you want to do is to clean up. While “standby” diapers is going to help us nurses to save time bringing them to the toilet, we cannot forget that everything we do must be patient-centered and not to our convenience.
8pm-9pm was mad rush changing diapers and sending them all to the toilet then tucking them in bed. Changing diapers isn’t a dreadful thing for me because I enjoy the return of the smiles on their faces and the “thank yous” I hear.
Last 2 days in a aged care hospital.
You reached out to me in the most unexpected times. Times when I beat myself up on things which are beyond my control.
You reached out to me when I have absolute zero faith that things would change for the better.
You reached out to me when I didn’t think a prayer would work and so I didn’t even bother trying.
I was so disappointed over the karate t-shirts quality and was even more disappointed that the members had to pay for such a material. All I can think of was “Should I come up with my own money and look for another supplier?”.
This thought was at the back of my mind every single day.
Frankly speaking, I felt like I was pacifying myself and the members when I asked for a photo of the ruined printing after washing, saying that I’ll speak to the supplier. I understood that some were skeptical that any good will come out from it, because even I myself didn’t buy it. But I had to fight for every possible chances, because I owe it to them.
Lord you never cease to amaze me with your grace and mercy. I can’t think of anyone to give praise to but you.
"Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand" Psalms 37:24
Thank you Lord, for the showers of blessings which I do not deserve.
I want to give my best years to you and I want to be more like you.