Saturday, February 15, 2014

Fulfilling obligations, sticking to appointments, keeping up with fellowship, and tons of assignments at school. I barely have adequate rest, let alone some “me” time. 

This week hasn’t been going well. Falling sick, canceling appointment, crying during skills (I wasn’t scolded in case you’re wondering), going for a job interview unprepared, and waking up late for team training. 

I received a stalk of Gerbera with a message from K which says “To cry is to feel, cherish this gift.” I needed it. I don’t know when “compassion fatigue” will kick in while I’m working in an oncology ward, but when it does, I would be so shattered. 
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Vday with Johnny at Lee’s Taiwanese in Starvista. Ice green milk tea, century egg tofu, beef noodle soup, salt&pepper chicken and intestine meesua (never a fan of intestine but that’s the only meesua). It’s soooooo good. 

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

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Monday, February 10, 2014
Sunday, February 9, 2014

As I grew older, I realized birthdays are not just about hosting a big party with groups of friends feeling awkward. I appreciate those who were there for me this entire week:’) Thank you for the wonderful surprises and the lovely wishes. 

4 mini celebrations altogether.
This week is such a bliss <3

Thursday, February 6, 2014

1. I had one of the best waffles with the best company
2. Last day of 2013 was completely off my expectation but nonetheless I enjoyed every single minute of it
3. First day of the new year was one milestone accomplished
4. D’good cafe
5. The best thing I’ve ever tasted in Everything with fries
6. Picnic
7. Baked my very first fruit tart
8. Falling in love with extremely adorable (and beautiful) kids
9. Karate Louhei.. The only picture that was properly taken
10. HOGC peeps from NUS coming together for LouHei. Oh check out the glorious mess we’ve made:))

Another round of blessings to share soon <3
Thank you God for this wonderful start to 2014. I shall recite it like a little prayer, thanking you for all the little miracles and hopes that you’ve blessed me with.

Sunday, February 2, 2014

"Here’s the thing about Hazel: Almost everyone is obsessed with leaving a mark upon the world. Bequeathing a legacy. Outlasting death. We all want to be remembered. I do, too. That’s what bothers me most, is being another unremembered casualty in the ancient and inglorious war against disease. I want to leave a mark. 

But Van Houten: The marks human leave are too often scars. 

After my PET scan lit up, I snuck into the ICU and saw her while she was unconscious. I just walked in behind a nurse with a badge and I got to sit next to her for like ten minutes before I got caught. I really thought she was going to die before I could tell her that I was going to die, too. I just held her hand and tried to imagine the world without us and for about 1 sec I was good enough person to hope she died so she would never know that I was going, too. But then I wanted more time so we could fall in love. I got my wish, I suppose. I left my scar. 

What else, she is so beautiful. You dont get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she is smarter than you: You know she is. She is funny without ever being mean. I love her. I am so lucky to love her, Van Houten. You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes hers.”

Gees. To those who laughed at me for reading a young adult novel but are now picking this book up and bawling their eyes out, good for you. hehe. Can’t wait for this movie to be out in SG!

Saturday, February 1, 2014
‎The biggest coward is a man who awakens a woman’s love with no intention of loving her.

Bob Marley (via perfect)

yep

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Wednesday, January 29, 2014

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Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Its so hard to find a common time when we’re 7 hours apart. 
I miss you!<3

Sunday, January 26, 2014

I have too much to say that I have nothing to say.

It came to a point where certain days each week it’ll be filled with thoughts of the future. It makes my heart ache and I’m exhausted from this sadness because of the realization that there can only be two outcomes in every relationship: Either you break up or you get married.

Some say I’m reading too much into things, that I should only live for the moment. But in my defence as far as the growing up process goes, every once in a while you think/plan for your future, you ask yourself: How is my career going to be like, how am I going to take care of my parents, who are the friends whom I know will be there 5 years on, who am I going to marry, when am I going to settle down?
So if you’re living for the moment, how can you look at your other half and be happy when there isn’t a future for the both of you together?
How is it possible to love someone so much but yet you know you won’t marry him?

Never allowed myself to be truly happy for the fear that this whole thing could fizzle out and I’ll be back to square one again. There is a saying that you become a little less real every second in other people’s eyes whom you are not around anymore. I collect silly stuff and put them in a memory box so I know it is real. Every hugs and kisses tasted so bittersweet. Sometimes it’s so hard to stomach my food with you around. Everytime I look at you I wonder if there’s a future of us.

Are my worries valid? Maybe I’m getting a little too serious. Maybe I should take it lightly. Maybe I’m overthinking. Right. Stop.

Friday, January 17, 2014
Tuesday, January 14, 2014

You can only give away what you already have inside yourself

"True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force youself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you’ve missed the first step of filling in your own self with these emotions."

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

I really shouldn’t have form such bad impression of Hong Kong because it didn’t turn out as bad as how people described it to be:) 

Anyhooo now I’m back in Singapore!

Monday, December 30, 2013

Here’s to a greater 2014


2013’s last service.

Last service was rather thought provoking. I’m still in the midst of digesting what the pastor has preached. 
Chronos Time: Sequential Time
Kairos Time: Moment in time or timing

There is a time and season for everything. Life is about what we do in time and with time. When we have understanding of the times, we will know what to do.

Luke 9:51
As the time approached for him to be taken up to heaven, Jesus resolutely set out for Jerusalem. 
Jesus knew his time.  

We were called to rise up in 2014. To seize every opportunity or to grow in every failure. It’s time for us to do what is right instead of what is easy

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2013 has yet to come to an end, but I’m in the mood to sum it up:D

This year feels completely different as compared to 2011&2012. 
I’m alot more happier, devoting time in those who matter, keeping myself busy with tons of assignments and releasing stress through cca (it works!). 

It’s time for me to set out and work hard to achieve what I’ve aimed for. I know the odds aren’t in my favour, but hey, at least I know there isn’t “what ifs” lingering at the back of my mind. 

I will not take the easy way out.